What makes every little flame of interest die? I feel like I'm living in a prison. I am confused and don't know what to think. I want to find a passion but often every little flame that gets started just passes right through me and dies. I don't know where to direct my energies anymore. So what is causing this? The one thing I can think of is the internal noise within myself -- that little voice that tells me "he's better than me" or "do I really like doing this?" Those little things hold me back.
Explore (Think and Feel)
I find it very frustrating and annoying that I am not getting anywhere with this passion thing. Sometimes I feel like I'm running around in circles just trying to understand where I fit in all this! When that little negative voice in me says "he's better than me," I need to turn on my positive thinking, rearrange the words to "God's given him that talent, what is mine?" Then jealousy slowly disappears. I often forget that I should be in competition with myself instead of someone else if I want to improve on any one thing.
Share (Thoughts)
Sometimes I feel like I'm going crazy... like I've given my brain to someone else and all I have left is an empty skull. Trying to build a better foundation on top of a crumbled demolished foundation is just too hard to handle. But I cannot give up. I have to be strong and push through it while trying to keep my sanity. I wonder, will I ever know what it feels like to have a passion constantly running through me?
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